Can we start over?
Non-linear growth is painful, but hopefully worth it
We are almost halfway through the year of 2024, and I would like to start over. Re-make the New Years’ resolutions that I failed to make in December 2023. This year started with the painful end of a long-term relationship, one that I thought would end with a happily-ever-after storybook wedding.
But over the course of the last 6 months I have alternated between sobbing uncontrollably, laughing until my insides hurt, and finding joy in the most unexpected ways. And maybe that’s the happily ever after that I’ve been looking for.
I’ve given myself flowers, held my own hand when the lights are gone, and serenaded myself when no one is listening. I took myself to the dentist, to the doctor, to the gym, to the park, to friends’ gatherings, out of the city, back into the city and everywhere else in between.
I took myself to the depths of despair and back up to Earth again. And I gave myself the liberty to be heartbroken, during a time when I was supposed to be really strong and unwavering.
I think that is strength though. Knowing that I’m not so special and that life isn’t out to get me, or reward me in equal measure.
I want to just live every day with the grace and kindness of someone who knows her time is limited, just like everyone else’s.
So, here’s to limited time with limitless tales.
and a storybook ending in the making, one tiny tale at a time.
